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billmaxwell) wrote2009-06-08 01:55 pm
billmaxwell) wrote2009-06-08 01:55 pm
AND another thing...
In the past couple of years, I've used writing (fanfic in particular, but original as well) as kind of a morphine for the soul.
Lately I can't get my fix. I'm not sure if my creative juices are running dry, or if my enchantment with fandom just can't feed itself anymore. When I even think about the lovely euphoria that writing used to give me, it makes me want to hurt myself.
I miss it, and I want it back, because it made everything else more bearable.
Mainly, I just want to be able to write. If I lose that, too, I don't know what I will do.
Lately I can't get my fix. I'm not sure if my creative juices are running dry, or if my enchantment with fandom just can't feed itself anymore. When I even think about the lovely euphoria that writing used to give me, it makes me want to hurt myself.
I miss it, and I want it back, because it made everything else more bearable.
Mainly, I just want to be able to write. If I lose that, too, I don't know what I will do.
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