A POAST!

Jul. 8th, 2009 08:59 am
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For some reason, the DW posting screen is always really crunk-looking and fucked up on my screen at work. I shall prevail over it, however!!

Writing group last night. We have a new member, and she is a sculptor, artist, published author, and runs her own publishing house (hence, published author). If I'd been in an up, positive sort of mood I'd have found this very cool.

Instead, she totally rubbed me the wrong way, and I'm not sure if it was me, or her. Very abrasive, abrupt, and had very "editor-y" crit for everyone who read. As well as comments like "I didn't believe you" and "that just doesn't work for me" and "nobody wants to know about your nasty drug abuse experiences". LOL, obviously she's rather opinionated.

And, none of those comments were for me...after I'd sat for awhile, planning to read what I'd written (a rather blog-like piece about the first months after my son's birth), I started to get that tight feeling in my chest, and then I felt my heart start to pound, and flop around, and the vision started narrowing a bit...I haven't had a panic attack in years. I haven't had any sort of speaking-in-public fear in even more years. I'm normally very comfortable, with speaking, with sharing my work, and with critique.

But I chicked-shitted out. Did not read. I couldn't handle her listening to a somewhat unedited piece about a very difficult time of my life, and saying "That doesn't work for me". Too personal, or something. Or maybe I'm just too sensitive to ever be a successful writer.

So normally I really like our group, but I felt OMG UNSAFE last night. Part of me hopes she doesn't return. Another part just says please grow up and deal with this.

My thoughts right now are that I won't share writings about my life if she's there, I'll just share fiction. I can stay a little more objective about that. I think. Also, need to go over the techniques for coping with panic attacks again. It's been so long since I've had one, I had no idea how to calm myself last night.

Memo to me: learn how to do cut-text on DW. Can't be all that different from LJ, yes? Anyone have this info to share?

Date: 2009-07-08 02:20 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] delfinnium
cut text is lj-cut text="blah" with the pointy brackets. You can also just use 'cut text="blah"' instead, but if you're cross posting, lj-cut works too.

A lot of the writers (ahahahah) in my writer fiction shop were opinionated, mostly the OTHER way, by going all out to making out that every piece of work was fantastic art.

(except mine. Hmm. I felt that they were too critical. but then, it could just be personal.)

Date: 2009-07-08 05:12 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] delfinnium
I'd say give them an old piece of your fiction. >.> that way, you can always justify that it being old, isn't as good as you are now. >.>

And that'd case how well you can handle crit from the group, and after that...

Date: 2009-07-09 07:54 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] facet
I think this chick thinks too highly of her own judgmental opinions. If you don't feel comfortable reading a particular piece in her presence then just don't. There's nothing childish about tailoring your presentation to your audience. Though, there IS something childish about someone who always has something to say.

Date: 2009-07-10 07:00 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] facet
If she wasn't the instructor then it wasn't her place to give that sort of critique. She can suck it and like it. <3

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